Dreaming or desire ??

Today last day for trial exam , Mathematics paper 2 .... Totally feel unhappy because question is easy , But i cannot do well maybe before this i lazy in revision ...
When the start of last paper exam ,teacher Sathin got encourage me and hopeful me get A in this trial exam . Haiz ... maybe she will sad when mark my paper ...

I always ask myself "WHY" .. before exam week is too hard to prepare but during exam week ... i totally in sleepy and lazy mood ... I jealous somebody success for achieve high mark in exam result ... I think they really pay out many time in prepare exam and cut down playful... Can i do that ?? dont know ... but just remains 3 month revision for real exam ... can i stopping log in facebook for entertainment ... I think is HARD ....

Today 26/8/2010... i dont know why i feel some happiness in my life .. Because She finally can accept me be her friends and Forgive me before wrongly am ... I hopeful we can keep this friendships forever ... I promise i will be more mature and dont talk any "Rubbish" anymore...

Ok la ... wake up preparing in this 3 month for coming soon "WAR" ...Hopeful all people are sit for STPM exam will do the best ... I will do my best for real exam ,however cant achieve my desire ---> 4A ... but i try my best to get a University for continue study ... If not , i will stage in "sociality University" ... Without study , i dont know what i can do lo ...